Poetry is a clear window into the heart. I often write to express the thoughts and emotions inside me--not knowing what will appear on the page but invariably discovering more about myself and the world around me.

When I Found Out About You

Posted Sunday, January 02, 2011

In my mind
It was only yesterday
Your mother called me with the news
She was pregnant
Life was about to change

It was only yesterday
When she woke me up
Time to get ready
Time to go to the hospital
It’s happening today
It was only yesterday
In my mind
 
When I found out about you
I was your age
Such a young man
Brainy
Brash
And committed
Committed to loving you


When I found out about you
My heart leapt 
I was excited
I knew in my deepest places
You would be my everything

When I found out about you
I was scared
Afraid I would screw it up
That I would be the dad I had
Instead of the dad I know you deserved

When I saw you for the first time
I stared And stared
And watched In utter amazement
You were my son
I was your dad

In Calculus, just a few days later
I was still walking on the clouds
I figured in my head the year of your graduation
2-0-0-9: I wrote it in my notebook

It was only yesterday
When you were a little boy
We had the longest talks
Laying in your bed
Talks about everything
World history
Science
About growing up
You being you
 
I’m sorry for my screw-ups
Sorry for the moments that make you cringe
Sorry for turning your life upside down
You didn’t deserve it
Through it all
We’re still here
Broken father
And son

Know this
I’m proud of you
All that you have become
All that you will be
Proud of you
And exactly who you are
And I love you More than you can imagine

You are ready
Ready to fly on your own
We’ll be here
But you won’t need us for much

In my mind It was only yesterday
Your mother called me with the news
She was pregnant
Life was about to change
It was only yesterday
When she woke me up
Time to get ready
Time to go to the hospital
It’s happening today
It was only yesterday
In my mind
 —Dad


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